The idea of Fate never entered her mind. The thought that an entity, even hypothetical, has the power to control events or the lives of others, was unacceptable. But whether you believe in it or not, Fate, teamed up with Life has a way of proving you wrong.
It started like a child's play. Both of them were in school, just at the age of first love. They met in the school yard, but never actually talked, but their eyes talked away. Whenever she went out on break, was feeling anxious, the anticipation of meeting his eyes being greater than anything else. She started looking around, desperately looking for those magic eyes, that saw her for what she was, looked into the very depth of her soul. Whenever she met them, her heart calmed down, whispering "it's OK, he was there again, all is good", but if she didn't meet his gaze, the same heart danced a crazy rhythm, almost as if trying to escape the chest, to look for him. Their silent meetings continued, until Fate stepped in, and separated their paths. Their schools were not the same anymore, and for the first time she panicked and started looking for him in the streets, trying to find out where he lived, so if they met she could say that first "Hello". But to no avail. Fate does not work the way we want it to work.
Time has passed, she left her home town, as did he, to pursue their ways of life. She fell in love, his memory being but a shadow that lurked in the corners of her heart, staying calm, making room for her love that flourished at that moment. The relationship evolved at its own pace, with its ups and downs. But Fate had other plans again. One weekend, she returned to her home town, and went to church with her family. The crowd was big, and after the mass made their way out. She got lost in the crowd and while looking for her family, the inner voice told her "look to your left"...she did, and saw HIM. He felt her so he turned, their eyes locking, like they used to so long ago. Her heart, sensing the familiar feeling, started its crazy dance, refusing to accept anything around, but him. Again no words were spoken, and by the time she decided to get closer, he was gone. With a heavy heart, she left.
Still, Fate brings help sometimes, help that takes the shape of Hope. One evening she went out with her boyfriend, her sister and some friends, to catch up on things. While sitting there, the same inner voice took over, and her eyes followed. Even though he had his back at her, she knew, her heart knew, that it was him again. Sensing he was being watched, he turned and their eyes recognized each other. A smile crossed his lips, his eyes lit up, as if to tell her "I know you, you are in my heart, fear not". She could not understand what happened. After all, she was in the arms of her boyfriend, her loved one and she was connecting with another man, whom she started considering hers. She grew impatient, her heart was troubled, but did not break the connection with him. Her mind denied everything, but the heart fought it "don't give in, he is interested, don't close up". Though in the arms of her boyfriend, she struggled to get free, to run to him, to talk to him, to ask him all the questions she wanted to ask. She couldn't breathe, the state of panic was overwhelming, the world stopped revolving. It was just her mind and her heart, two entities struggling for supremacy. He got up from his table, and passed in front of theirs, smiling down on her. She didn't dare look up to him for fear of losing control over her emotions. She tried to be indifferent, but her heart betrayed her once again.
In life there are signs that show us the way, but they are not always upfront, you need to listen with your heart and soul.
Though she thought her relationship was longlasting, her boyfriend wanted out. He felt trapped, needed his freedom. The break-up was painful, even though they decided to stay friends. When you invest your heart and soul into something, it's difficult not to fall apart when it ends. At night she tossed and turned, not being able to sleep, thinking things through, over and over again, blaming herself for not seeing the signs, feeling like a fool. But in the darkness of her mind there was a glimmer of hope, a small but strong light, HIM. When the pain was overwhelming, threatening to pull her under, the mere thought of him rescued her. She wondered how can she love someone when they haven't even talked yet, though they saw each other all these years. Because the truth is, she loved him, with all her heart, mind and soul. And even if she knew he was happy with somebody else, she would be happy as well, because that's what love is.
She tracked him down, and decided the time has come to take a chance. She wrote him a letter and waited for an answer, but it was delayed. The waiting made her nervous and started giving up, feeling empty. But her heart was calm, confident that things would be alright in the end.
Fate, however, needed no more proof. For the holidays she went home, for some well deserved time with her family. It was snowing, the streets were lit with a thousand lights, people walking by, the atmosphere was magical. While walking down the street they met. This time it was more than a glance, their eyes recognizing all their feelings, all the silence throughout the years, their hopes, their bond.
"Hello!" he said, in a gentle voice, one she never heard before but knew as if from a past life.
"Hello!" she said, with a shy smile.
There were no more need for words, they belonged to each other, and they knew it. The connection became complete!
Time has passed, she left her home town, as did he, to pursue their ways of life. She fell in love, his memory being but a shadow that lurked in the corners of her heart, staying calm, making room for her love that flourished at that moment. The relationship evolved at its own pace, with its ups and downs. But Fate had other plans again. One weekend, she returned to her home town, and went to church with her family. The crowd was big, and after the mass made their way out. She got lost in the crowd and while looking for her family, the inner voice told her "look to your left"...she did, and saw HIM. He felt her so he turned, their eyes locking, like they used to so long ago. Her heart, sensing the familiar feeling, started its crazy dance, refusing to accept anything around, but him. Again no words were spoken, and by the time she decided to get closer, he was gone. With a heavy heart, she left.
Still, Fate brings help sometimes, help that takes the shape of Hope. One evening she went out with her boyfriend, her sister and some friends, to catch up on things. While sitting there, the same inner voice took over, and her eyes followed. Even though he had his back at her, she knew, her heart knew, that it was him again. Sensing he was being watched, he turned and their eyes recognized each other. A smile crossed his lips, his eyes lit up, as if to tell her "I know you, you are in my heart, fear not". She could not understand what happened. After all, she was in the arms of her boyfriend, her loved one and she was connecting with another man, whom she started considering hers. She grew impatient, her heart was troubled, but did not break the connection with him. Her mind denied everything, but the heart fought it "don't give in, he is interested, don't close up". Though in the arms of her boyfriend, she struggled to get free, to run to him, to talk to him, to ask him all the questions she wanted to ask. She couldn't breathe, the state of panic was overwhelming, the world stopped revolving. It was just her mind and her heart, two entities struggling for supremacy. He got up from his table, and passed in front of theirs, smiling down on her. She didn't dare look up to him for fear of losing control over her emotions. She tried to be indifferent, but her heart betrayed her once again.
In life there are signs that show us the way, but they are not always upfront, you need to listen with your heart and soul.
Though she thought her relationship was longlasting, her boyfriend wanted out. He felt trapped, needed his freedom. The break-up was painful, even though they decided to stay friends. When you invest your heart and soul into something, it's difficult not to fall apart when it ends. At night she tossed and turned, not being able to sleep, thinking things through, over and over again, blaming herself for not seeing the signs, feeling like a fool. But in the darkness of her mind there was a glimmer of hope, a small but strong light, HIM. When the pain was overwhelming, threatening to pull her under, the mere thought of him rescued her. She wondered how can she love someone when they haven't even talked yet, though they saw each other all these years. Because the truth is, she loved him, with all her heart, mind and soul. And even if she knew he was happy with somebody else, she would be happy as well, because that's what love is.
She tracked him down, and decided the time has come to take a chance. She wrote him a letter and waited for an answer, but it was delayed. The waiting made her nervous and started giving up, feeling empty. But her heart was calm, confident that things would be alright in the end.
Fate, however, needed no more proof. For the holidays she went home, for some well deserved time with her family. It was snowing, the streets were lit with a thousand lights, people walking by, the atmosphere was magical. While walking down the street they met. This time it was more than a glance, their eyes recognizing all their feelings, all the silence throughout the years, their hopes, their bond.
"Hello!" he said, in a gentle voice, one she never heard before but knew as if from a past life.
"Hello!" she said, with a shy smile.
There were no more need for words, they belonged to each other, and they knew it. The connection became complete!
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